|Trying to squeeze myself into the box: judging myself 'bad' when I can't make it|
|Social ideal person|
when that does not work I judge myself as bad, pathetic, wrong, deficient, and I try harder.
It never occurs to me that actually I don't know who I am, what I truly want, and what my own energies are.
I just assume I know all that.
And if I am not the ideal person I think I ought to be, then it's because I'm not trying hard enough, I'm not good enough.
Social ideals are simple: heaps of money, good looks, admired by all, super smart, innovative, 'green', + whatever the current fashion is....
Can anyone really meet them ?
So we try harder.
Actually we can both,
we can put a bit of our energies into the social role, but not all of it.
If this is me:
What to do ?
respect each reality, the social as well as the greater being I am.
Neither try to be all one or the other.
yes like learning to ride a bicycle....