words are just words - trust is trust

Words are just words. 

In the end they ask you to trust something, someone... 

Words are just the sheepdogs herding us to somewhere. 

Why not trust myself ?

In the end: you gotta trust someone. 

running from myself

Yangon/Rangoon 2010

Looking at myself I realize: I've been afraid of myself.
I have always looked or an outside  reason for the decisions I made.

"I'm doing this for ...........her, ..............him, .............because it is best......because it is RIGHT ....etc"
all those things are good reasons.
Those reasons are good enough to do things for. Most of our lives are based on those reasons.
e.g. STaying in a job to feed the family... is a " good " responsible thing... no doubt about it. I'm not saying I should NOT do it. It's good. There is a moral imperative. I don't have to face the deeper things. (There is still a question of faith,  trust, alternative jobs, facing things as a family etc... but lets leave that one aside for the moment)

What about true CHOICES, that are purely choices ?
I'm not talking about moral choices here. I'm talking about CHOICES where it is just MY choice. 
In those situations I still  look for reasons for what I do OUTSIDE of myself.
And I understand now: I am doing that because I'm scared of the strange feeling of total freedom to BE who I AM.
I am afraid to decide something simply because of who I AM.
No outside reasons.
No should's
No ought's
Just ME.
That is scary.
Very.
Scary.

And liberating.

Mind demands a reason, a right and a wrong.
Mind demands a good and a bad.
I seek refuge in those things

But there is a part of me that does not demand any of those things.... . There is a part of me that wants to CHOOSE and BE simply because... simply becausee.... without a reason, simply because I CHOOSE.
No reason, Just because of who  I AM.
That is what I want to do, and what I have run from all my life....

I wonder WHAT that is ? It is a different energy. 

That pure BEing and choosing by who I AM is so scary because it is 

- un familiar

- a new way to BEing

- FEELS strange...

you MUST !!! - VS respect

As some of you
will evolve in your lives to be healers,
let me remind you that there are some souls
that do not wish to be healed.  

 

"You must be healed."
is so often the message that is given
with the healing.
No, they must not be healed.
Only if they want to.
And you are not the authority on that.
Do not inflict your will.

Just give love.
The soul will take that love
and put it where it can best be used.
                           --- from Emmanuel's Book, p166

love the imperfection

Saigon La Fenetre Soleil Apr111

your less evolved areas have a right to be.
THey whisper of things past.
They whisper of confusion, of unfulfillment
and of the pain of the soul separated from its God
and the longing for that ONEness again.

Realize that on this earth
there can only be relative perfection.
Realize  too that you do not need to be perfect
to be loved. Love each other in your imperfections,
tenderly and completely. Be gentle with yourselves.
The demand for perfection on the physical plane
can be your worst enemy.

To insist on perfection precludes growth.
To accept imperfection as part of your humanness
is to grow
If you can love the part of you that you think
is imperfect
then the act of transformation can begin.
When you judget it and throw it out of your heart
it becomes a hardened shell the blocks the Light.

If you deny what is your nature
you become deeply attached to that denial.
When you accept what is there, in its truth,
then you are released.
One does not release through rejection.
One releases through love.

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to stive for light is a beautiful calling
but you cannot find the Light
until you acknowledge the darkness.
SOuls who strive in perfect yearning
are as close to perfection
as anyone in human form can be.
Who you are is a necessary step
to being who you will be, ans so it goes
through eternity.

Be comfortable but not complacent
with your imperfections.

Who demands pefection ?
Only your souls who are locked in human form
believe somehow that perfection is the requirement.
It is not.
The requirement is sincerity,
an open heart.
That is the perfection that is demanded, -
the perfect longing.

from Emmanuel
1p98

emotional wheelchairs

When a toddler learns to walk she takes a few steps and then falls and gets up and tries again and falls and cries and then tries again, because what can she do ? 

Stop trying and never learn to walk ? go around in a wheel chair because she is too scared to fall again ? 

Kids and toddlers have more sense than that. 

Only clever adults drive around in emotional wheelchairs because they are afraid to fall - again.


- written from an emotional wheelchair :-)